Forgiveness

 It's 4:28 p.m but I'm not tired and I consider that the following issue is very impotant for everyone's living.

   A few days ago, I was walking throught the street when I came across with my ex-girlfriend, for my surprise, she started to talk to me in a really polite and friendly way, she asked how my life was and all that stuff and she told me about her stuff. At the end of the conversation (a really short one), I stayed on the pavement for a few seconds thining about what had happened. I realized that, although I had got more mature (or I had grown as a man at least, as maybe saying that of being more mature is not true), she hadn't changed, she was the same way she was when we were together, her life was the same...I thought about it for a long time after that, what do you think about her? what do you feel? And I thought that, although she had hurted me so much in the past, does it really matter now? Everyone has keep on each way, I recognise that I feel happy that we broke up because that gave me the oportunity to learn and grow, why should I hate her? Yes, I could still hate her because what happened really fucked me (sorry for my bad vocabulary, I will work this out, I promise) but, what for? Do I win or keep anything for hating her? Do I get anything but bitterness? That is not my way, I chose to forgive her, I chose to forgive us both. In my opinion, there is nothing better than having that sense of freedom that you get when you forgive somebody, it's magic, you take that hate, that bitternes, and you throw it throught the window. I can't tell you how good taking that off from me was..really, realising that it was worthless to keep that for stupid pride released me, I just wanted you to know it, maybe you could try to do something like that in your life, it's up to you, I can only tell you how good it was for me. I'm not going to talk to her again or to try to keep in contact with her, that would be strange and even non-profitable, I just did it to have something less to bear in my life. I hope this helps you or that you just find interesting to see how a young boy behaves in such a stupid way...who knows?? :)